I'm not really sure if anyone reads this anymore, but my life is so all over the place I feel like I'm constantly updating people on what we're doing. So, here's the update if you're out there, otherwise I'll just consider it an outlet and form of therapy.
Another round of the ever dreaded, what's going on with you...
I didn't get into the post-baccalaureate pre-med program I had applied to. The plan was to use this one year program to boost my grades and application to the medical school affiliated with the program, but it didn't work out. I did find it somewhat comforting to find out that the associate dean of the program simply said it's just not the right fit for someone who's already attended medical school. Now, if only they could have told me this before I applied to the program and got my hopes up.
However, after paying attention to some of the words spoken and sung at mass tonight (sung by me, the cantor, who got through the entire mass without any major mistakes... small hoorah!) I'm beginning to wonder if perhaps God is trying to tell me that being a doctor isn't for me. (Crazy thought considering I am a Filipino and quite frankly who knew they had other occupations to consider at all, haha) So, on to the bigger and badder and bolder questions... What am I being called to do?
Here's the update/thought process... Feel free to weigh in...
- Open a Coffee Shop/Bakery. This idea seems fun and ridiculous. I love to bake, but I would never want to own a bakery that would require me to churn out pastries and other delights at a ridiculous pace. Hence, a coffeeshop/bakery. I do loooove coffee, and I love the idea of owning a place for people to gather, connecting people through great food. Plus, I figure I can bake on a first come first serve basis and I'm a pretty decent baker (see the pic of the pseudo-black forest cuppies I made someone as a late xmas present). The scary part of this plan is I never wanted to own my own business, seems like entirely too much fluff to deal with and I'd hate to get into this and have it financially tank. As if I don't already have enough student loan debt... Besides, I don't even know where to begin on this type of thing, especially since I've never even worked at a bakery. But if you're out there, and independently wealthy, feel free to contact me...- Be either a psychologist or therapist, depending on the schooling involved. This sounds crazy, but I kind of love the crazies. I feel for them. I relate to them. I believe I can honestly help them without being judgmental like many others are. Plus, I never realized how down-to-earth, together and levelheaded I actually am. It sounds cocky to say that, but I suppose it's true, might as well recognize it and use it as an asset in my life.
- Be a physician's assistant with some wicked specialty like surgery, pediatrics, or pediatric cardiology. This idea fulfills my want/need to work in the medical field, without the added hassles of becoming a doctor. At least this way there is less school, no residency or at least not like a medical residency, and a somewhat better and more family friendly lifestyle as compared to a physician.
- Finally, go into some version of research. I did a little (and I do mean a little) research in undergrad, and I loved it. Plus, I think my brain is well suited for research. I most certainly don't think like anyone else I know and as big muffin says, I'm a bit anal in the strangest ways. Watched a National Geo Documentary thing on Stress courtesy of instant netflix and couldn't help but think... Hmmm, it would be pretty awesome to work for that guy.
Anyway, this wasn't exactly what I had meant to post about, but when I began to write it's what came out, so it must be what truly does weigh on me. Something lighter and more fun to follow. (I'm resolving to write on here more often.)
Some Random Tidbits
What I'm Reading: Izzy and Lenore, The MS Recovery Diet
What I'm Listening to: The song in my head, which is a 3 second loop of a song whose name I do not know
What I'm Planning to Bake Next: Dog Treats, Orange Scones
What I'm Craving: Chicken in a Biscuit
What I thought most while writing this: I use ellipses in all the wrong places and in all the wrong ways, but I just can't help but enjoy using them to represent my trailing thought processes.
Ya know, I wasn't really aware that you liked research in your undergrad days ... but then again it was the Duff man. If you think you could like it, maybe you should give it a shot and you wouldn't have to stray too far from medicine. In fact, you wouldn't have to stray from medicine at all. They never tell you this in undergrad, but you don't have to be strictly a chemist (how boring), you can throw in some flare with biology or completely convert to bio and moonlight as something else on the side. And that type of research geared toward medicine isn't at all that boring... you could study cancer, neuro, viral, cardio... you name it. Instead of treating a handful of patients a day, you'd be developing the tools for others to treat a much larger group of patients ... you'd be like the-behind-the-scenes person. Plus, it takes less time to be come a Ph.D. in the health sciences than a medical M.D. Sorry, I got wordy... but if you ever wish to talk about the research avenue or get a first hand account let me know ... If not, soooo go for the coffee shop/bakery :)
ReplyDeleteI love hearing from you! I miss you and it feels like the Jesuit days were soooo very long ago. Plus, you're comments always make me feel better somehow. :)
ReplyDeleteGood insight. I'm not sure I would love research on a day in day out basis, but I definitely loved (and maybe glorified) the idea in my mind's eye. It's still a vague possibility.
I'm looking into Physical Therapy right now. Something I never really considered and I don't know why.
I've also more seriously thought about a bakery, just not so sure I want to own my own business...
Hope things are great for you! I think of you often and miss you! (Geez, you'd think I was writing you a valentine, lol)